Healing was by Vin, and it’s the first time i experienced so much energy. my whole body was totally warm. When I first reached Centre, I was telling Vel it’s so cold. and after the session, I was perspiring! Again, he said I’ve alot in my mind.
I love DG today. I love the feeling of peace and serenity during the later part when we were sitting on the ground, and enjoying the quietness of the night. this is a break-through for me, as before, I’ll never have felt totally at ease in such a place even with lots of friends around, much less it’s a cemetery! but the feeling was so wonderful, that you feel like you dunwan the night to end…
last night, i tried reading 心经 in front of the 观音 alter at home. i felt alot of enegry gushing in my hands and face, and my lips were quivering. amazing.
something happened today that totally amused me.
MR walked over and show me a crystal bracelet and ask me if i like it. i told him No. Because I don’t like purple.
Purple reminds me of Barney, the ugly dino.
So he asked me to choose one that I like, from a table of crystals of different colors and patterns.
A particular one caught my eye immediately, cos it looks black.
After I made my choice, MR asked me why. I told him cos that caught my eyes.
and he exclaimed “aint it the same?”
I looked and realized it’s the same color/design as the one he had shown me earlier! do you call this 注定? there’s so many colors for me to choose on the table and I choose the purple one. hahaha…
from today onwards, I’ll learn to love Purple. Purple is not Barney. Purple represents Royalty. hahhaa…
anyway, not sure if it’s coincidence, but after i started wearing the bracelet, i felt alot of pressure on my crown. or maybe today keep standing beside the crystal table and received too much energy. hahaa
After googling around, here’s what I find:
Purple amethyst jewellery stills the mind during meditation and calms for sleep with inspired dreams. Deep purple Amethyst is also reputed to aid inner alignment, balances inner bodies, energizes, clears energy blocks and eases arthritis.
Purple is the color of good judgment. It is the color of people seeking spiritual fulfillment. It is said if you surround yourself with purple you will have peace of mind. Purple is a good color to use in meditation.
Purple has been used to symbolize magic and mystery, as well as royalty. Being the combination of red and blue, the warmest and coolest colors, purple is believed to be the ideal color. Most children love the color purple. Purple is the color most favored by artists. Thursday’s color is purple.
Violet gemstones are associated with mysticism and purification. They are used for meditation and to sharpen psychic awareness, connection with higher self, and to increase imagination and inspiration.
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at the bazaar today, my main customers are kids! I just keep selling to them, and ask them crocodile, tiger, monkey or giraffe? lol~
One thing i realized about these angmokias are that they are not afraid of strangers, and are quite independent. Chinese kids have a tendency to be super shy and super dependent on their parents, but not these angmo kias. they are so cute lor. if i have kids of my own 1 day, i want them to be like these independent angmokias. can survive better in this society.
While doing OMNPMH, i dunno why but i suddenly feel sad, and have the urge to cry. never la, but the feeling is there.
During GYFM, i felt slight pressure on my 3rd eye chakra, and heat in my palms. and there was this intense pressure on my heart chakra. it was so intense and painful that it even makes breathing difficult. I’m not sure if this is due to GYFM, but after GYFM, i felt slightly better though the pressure/pain is still there, then it slowly goes away. this pain on my heart chakra lasts throughout the whole GYFM. it was so bad, i keep wanting to just stop, but i told myself i must persist. at the later part of GYFM, my hand started to poke my 3rd eye chakra. lately, I’ve been trying to stop any movements, but this time the force is too strong that it just brought by hand up.
MR, is the pain at my heart chakra normal?
my back have been hurting like crazy the past week, and seriously, doing GYFM with a bad back is crazy. I can hardly sit straight lor. I’m not sure if it’s because of my bad back but I was extremely distracted during GYFM. I just can’t focus and keep getting distracted by this and that.
Felt energy flowing in my hands, very prickly. pressure on crown chakra, and yesterday, i seem to feel some pressure on my splenic chakra. it feels like someone is poking me lightly. anyway, could be imagination lah, cos the feeling is not very obvious.
GYFM last night, my body was moving again. Just read MR’s comment on my previous post. Will try to control my movement tonight. My hands felt hot. numb and prickly, and my hands started to poke my 3rd eye chakra and heart chakra. although I’ve been warned that this may happen, i was stunned for a moment as I was afraid it will mis-aim and poke my eye. hahaha..
did DG after GYFM and my hands started patting/hitting myself. Felt good to know that my soul is started to self-heal me. 
credits: image from http://www.lisabeachy.com/Chakras.html
GYFM yesterday, my body started moving again, but in no particular pattern. in the beginning, i was trying to identify the pattern, but notice i can’t. unlike the day before where i was turning circles, then left-right, yesterday, i was moving randomly. I remembered MR mentioning about 自在 and gave up trying to spot the pattern and just let go and let my body move however it wants to. but i did noticed it have a tendency to lean to the left more. at one time, I was moving front-back, then I tried to stop myself from leaning forward, then the energy very naughty and pull me back, then move front again. power sia..do whatever it takes to work. hahaha…very my style.
MR, am I supposed to allow myself to move or should I control my movement?
was also trying to chant OMNPMH and OAH using 金刚念诵法。 I’m not sure if I’m doing it properly, but I think i sound rather odd, and not too sure if I’m doing right. think I’ll demo to hubs later.
when I was trying to memorize 心经，I felt strong pressure on my 3rd eye chakra. in fact, i’ve been feeling pressure on my 3rd eye chakra quite often lately. does this mean anything?
Healing yesterday by Edy and Kelvin. there was lots of heat. on my hands, face, back. When MR came over and put his hand on my head, I felt extremely sad, and felt tears. When I heard Valerie crying, suddenly, I started tearing. Edy also said he saw a very sad image of me. Anyway, Kelvin said my 磁场 is very 乱, and Edy asked if I’m very stressed and have alot in my mind. *happy thoughts happy thoughts*
Was taught the full set of SOP by Eugene and Dom. It’s super super super very chimz. Gotta workhard to remember everything.
Went for DG after that, and I’m turning round and round again. and the funniest thing is I nearly banged into a tree. i hope I’ll stop turning rounds soon and start moving more normal. Then, the other guys did this team DG. it’s so amazing! I hope I can be like them one day.
Went home, and did GYFM. There was lots of heat, and my hands felt numb and prickly. then, i felt my body turning rounds (not very big movement), but I’m drawing circles. I thought, maybe I seh liaoz and turning myself, so i stopped and control myself. but I felt some energy pulling me and started turning again, then after a while, I started swaying left and right. then suddenly, it stopped. and after a while, i started turning again. this is so very amazing.
Did SOPs.
felt nothing. I realised that recently, I do not feel anything when doing GYFM. not even the energy that I used to feel everytime I stretch out my hand. Heat, I’m not sure if it’s my body heat, or energy. No pressure on the forehead as well. But I love doing GYFM (I know, this sounds amusing after looking back at my entry last week). It gave me a sense of peace and calm after a crazy day at work that I’m actually looking forward to it. Hope it remains this way, and I’ll never be like hubs, seeing funny things.
I’ve stopped trying to feel anything, and just let it go. it feels better that way.
I googled for NMAMTF and played it non-stop yesterday. Finally, I remembered the tune again.
Did abit of DG. my hand just keeping going in circles, again and again and again.
Went for my first official lesson on Sunday, and I got abit 乱 with the SOPs.
Went for my first ever DG at this super ulu, dark, green patch of land somewhere. Somewhere I’ll never ever go on my own. anyway, for the first 15 mins, I can hardly move. I’m feeling so much anxiety, and somehow, i realised DG is like Golf. I need to be totally at ease with myself, and let go. The more tensed up and ganjiong I feel, the more shit it is. I’m kinda afraid that when I open my eyes, everyone will be gone, which I think explains why, when MR is standing in front of me and I can hear him telling me to relax, I got better. After that, hubs came over to talk to me, and I became more relaxed.
I started moving backwards, and in circle. it started slow, then became faster and faster and i got very giddy. it’s quite fun actually. looking forward to more DG.
SOP last night. felt some energy, and pricks on my hands while doing GYFM. and somehow, I had trouble remembering the tune of NMAMTF which I wanted to sing in my mind while doing GYFM. I still can’t remember now. wierd lor. I must have listened to this tune since young. how can I forget?
